Roddy Ricch is a big star now, and he dropped his second album Live Life Fast last night to much fanfare.
But Roddy wasn't always on top of his game. On his new track "Crash The Party", Roddy offers up a spoken word explanation of a time he felt so low he thought about ending it all.
I was walkin' through Compton one night at like— ahem
Like two a.m. in the morning
I just left my girl house, I found out she was on some bullshit
You know what I'm sayin', and
I walked past the 91, I was walkin' all the way down Central
Past the graveyard and shit
I had made a l— a right on Alondra, um
Walked up by the side of the airport
And I passed the hood, you know what I'm sayin', and
And I went all the way to The Cedars
I had pulled up on my DJ at the time and
He was just tellin' me keep my head up and sh*t like that
Sh*t was crazy, you know?
I felt like I wanted to die, I felt like I ain't even wanna be here no more 'cause
I just— I ain't have sh*t at the time, you know what I'm sayin'?
And music was all I really had, so
You know just from goin' to jail and
F*cking around in the streets, I knew it wasn't sh*t
So I had to just, keep my head up, keep goin', get focused
Grind that shit out, you know what I'm sayin'?
Roddy is the latest in an increasing list of artist who have admitted to having suicidal thoughts.